Lately, I’ve felt pretty overwhelmed with just about everything.
Life has gotten busy.
I am exhausted.
I homeschool the kids. I make sure the chores get done. I have to stay on top of meal planning, even though we were without our regular fridge/freezer for a few weeks. I am in charge of our family budget and money management. I have to make sure all the bills get paid. I make sure emails get answered. (I haven’t been great about this lately!) I manage online groups. I participate in various ways on online groups, forums, and collectives. I tweet, I facebook, I instagram. I bum around online.
Things are hard, though.
My kids misbehave. They get cranky. They decide to throw temper tantrums and ruin things. I have to clean up after them when they destroy our property. The bills pile up. I forgot about 2 a week and a half ago and screwed up the budget for this paycheck. I have to wait on my own paychecks for work that I do, often for months. We get behind on homeschooling. I haven’t taught much history or science yet, even though we’re 25 lessons in to our core coursework. Not in those subjects.
Our food couldn’t be saved from the fridge and freezer. Not much of it anyway. We lost over $300 in food due to the fridge going out and that’s not covered under warranty or any type of insurance. We just lost it. Done deal. I get tired and don’t want to cook every night, but because of the budget blunder, there’s not a choice. I want to eat junk, but I’m doing a clean eating challenge. I have already failed a few times on the challenge. I guess I’m human.
I want to run away from home. I need a vacation. My husband has had more time away and more vacation than me. I have to chuckle about it a bit. What does he need to get away from?
Don’t get me wrong, I realize that we are richly blessed. Our lives are beautiful, a true miracle, especially compared to the rest of the world.
That doesn’t change how I feel.
Overwhelmed.
Tired.
Stressed.
Explosive.
Exhausted.
Drained.
Taken advantage of.
Unloved.
Unthanked.
Forgotten.
Used.
Cranky.
Whiny.
Guilty.
With all of that said, please excuse me as I take somewhat of a mental break. My posts will be a bit sporadic and I hope you all don’t notice the mental fog translated on the blog as much as I am experiencing it in real time.
This blog is an important part of my life right now. It is a source of income and a source of a lot of fun and opportunities. It is still a source of stress, though.
I am not going anywhere. I am simply hoping to post when my heart is in it, and not as a chore.
I want to love what I’m doing, and that includes the time I spend sharing with you on my blog.
Taking A Break – Have You Done It?
What helps you to get out of a funk?
Jana says
For the past two weeks I’ve been taking a much needed break. I’ve gone from working on the blog like 40 hours a week to 20 or less. I have prioritized my time with the hubs and daughter and then worked on it if the time was available. It’s been AWESOME!!!
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Emilee says
I definitely understand. I have felt that way, too. I hope you’re able to get a nice break and feel refreshed!
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Marla Zickefoose says
As a mother of 4 also, I completely get how your feeling. I’ve been there more times than I care to admit. I’ve learned to tuck pockets of time away for myself to do ONLY what I want to do at that moment. It felt selfish at first but its what I needed to refuel, focus, and be the best me on all fronts. Sending hugs to you my friend 🙂
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Aras Androck says
Oh wow. That’s a lot of work. My admiration for super moms like you are just so big. You can do it, super mom!
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